| Location | Manchester |
| Age | 5 months |
| Date of Birth | 6/2006 |
| Date of Death | 11/2006 |
| Visitors | 2,656 since 07/06/2007 |
| Creator |
Molly Ann Muriel Beddow
D.O.B 27/06/2006
Birth weight 1lb 9oz
15 Weeks premature
D.O.D 03/11/2006
Aged Nearly 5 months old
Weight 6lb 15oz
Molly had 5 bowel operations during her time in St Marys
Hospital and 3 broviac line operations. Molly had a very cheeky personality; she always had her
tongue out, sucking on her dummy or ventilator tube but most of the time on both. Molly’s whole
face lit up when she smiled. Her eyes were brown and beautifully big. Molly had brown curly hair.
She always had lovely nails that had long white tips as if they had been manicured. Her toe nails
were the same they looked as if she had a pedicure. Molly always smiled even when she was really
poorly. Molly also made sucking noises which were really cute, the sort that makes you laugh
whenever you think back to her making them. Molly had the cutest little coughs and sneezes. When
Molly didn’t like something she would have the worst temper tantrums you could imagine. She would
pull out her tubes and cry like mad. Molly wasn’t a baby that liked being touched very often with
her being in intensive care nurses and doctors were always messing with her and waking her up all
the time. When she wanted to be touched though she would squeeze your finger so tight that her tiny
fingertips would go pure white. Molly loved having cuddles and baths with me and Stephanie, she
would just sleep all the way through bath time sitting on the bubbles (Stephanie put the oxygen tube
into the bath and made it like a Jacuzzi for Molly) she loved it. I will never forget Molly for as
long as I live and I doubt that anyone that knew her would either. I love you darling and I want you
to know that I know why you was brought into this world and then taken away from me again now. You
was brought here to teach me how to change my life and myself. You was taken away from me because
Grandma needed a helping hand in heaven and George needed someone he knows to look after him. When
it’s my time to go to heaven I know you will be waiting at heavens gates for me smiling and eyes
lit up, until then just know that everything I do now is for you. I miss you so much darling. All my
love mummy xxxxxx
Your story!!
When I Sarah Beddow found out I was pregnant aged 17 years old I was already 22 weeks gestation but
only had a tiny bump. I had mixed feelings about having a baby because You wasnt planned but I loved
you straight away. I went to Wales to see your great nanna and grandad and thats when my
contractions started at 25 weeks gestation. The nurses gave me steriods to try stop you from coming
into the world so early and so small, but you didnt want to wait. You was born at 7:01am tuesday
27th june 2006. You were so tiny, your skin was bright red and you had a mound of dark brown hair
like mine! You came into the world crying so loud which the nurses and doctors said was a good sign.
When you was a week old you had to be rushed into theatre for your 1st bowel operation because you
had a hole in your bowel and it was all diseased. I had half an hour with you and I remember how
hard and heart breaking it was as though it was just yesterday. You came back to me after 5 hours.
You started to get better but then your stomas (bowel on the outside from the operation) prolapsed
and you had to go back to theatre to sort them out. This happend 3 times when the surgeons decided
to put your bowels back inside your tummy. You had gotten alot better during the times your stomas
were prolapsing and once I got told you would be moved into room 2 because you was breathing on your
own with no help what so ever for 10 hours. The day after you took a bad turn and became poorly
again so you was put back on ncpap (little oxygen mask over your nose). Then you got worse and worse
and had to go back onto the ventilator (life support machine). You started getting really really
poorly again and on your last operation when the surgeon was giving you stomas again I got told that
if they had to cut a big amount of bowel from you, you would only survive for a couple of weeks. You
came back to me but never got better. On the 4th october you took a turn for the worst by the 6th I
got told you wouldnt make it to the morning. So I asked grandma to keep you strong and she must of
heard me. You got christend that night and stayed with me til the 3rd November. 2nd november I
washed my hands took off my coat and walked up to your cot to see you like always but as soon as I
looked over at your nurse Stephanie I knew she was going to tell me you was leaving. I had a meeting
with Dr daddy and he asked me for permission to turn off your ventilator. At that point I broke down
and couldnt say anything. I turned to your nanna for the answer. We couldnt do anything to help you
get through everything that had happend to you. We made the decision (which I still think was it the
right one) to let you go in dignity in my arms with nanna holding onto you and Great cousin Claire
(also one of your godmothers). If I wouldnt of made that decision dr daddy said you might of gone
alone on the ventilator in pain any night for at the most 3 days. Im so sorry for what I had to do
Molly and I wish I could of given up my life to take the place of yours. If I could go back and die
for you then I would in less than a second. This isnt all of your story because it hurts too much to
explain everything that you went through during your short lifetime. I love you so much, Your going
to be 1 in less than 2 weeks, I wish you was here spending it in my arms but as your not, have a
beautiful day up in heaven. xxxx
a mothers tears
I have filled an ocean with tears.
Salty and bitter, they flow from my soul.
All the grief, all the pain
All the sadness, all the fears.
All the hurt, all the whys.
All the could haves, all the loss.
All the regrets, all the lost chances.
All the wants, all the goodbyes.
I have filled an ocean with tears.
Sweet and soft, they flow from my soul.
All the joy, all the laughter
All the love, all of the years.
All the rewards, all the smiles.
All the triumphs, all the hellos.
All that was right and all that was good.
All the kisses and hugs from my child.
I have filled an ocean with tears.
Salty and bitter, sweet and soft.
For love, for sadness, for joy, for pain.
I have filled an ocean with tears. xxx xxx
I love you baby girl... Awww how sweet is Cherrelles mum. We will have to buy Rel a rose from you and me... Its her birthday on the 5th march so we will buy her some flowers and get her a card from us 2 aswel darling... I hope your having fun... Give great grandma a kiss from me and one from yourself for me on mummys day which is 2nd march... I miss you so much... Wish I could bring you back... Auntie Caitland comes on here alot now doesnt she... She really misses you and so does everyone else... I am going to get nanna a card from you and one from me and your auntie and uncles.. I dont know what presents I can buy her from you and us yet though... I will be back soon x x x x x
Morning x
morning molly, i had a nice chat with ur mummy last night. hopefully we r going 2 meet soon, didn't realize ur mummy new my cherrelle. its a small world, and u r both together in Gordon cem, real close to each other. i always look at u when i come. im going 2 bring rel some fresh flowers today and i will pick a nice one 4 u also, im going 2 go now, but i will talk again real soon. till then god bless u darling. love always from cherrelles mummy, Angela xx xx
morning sarha, thank 4 the chat last night. i was nice, hope u have a good day, im going cem about 12ish then back again about 3ish, if i dont get 2 c u, i will have a chat later. take great care, and thank again 4 the chat. xxxx xxx
sorry
hi molly, just went and got rels flowers, i wanted to get u a single pink rose, but they didnt have any. i will get u one this week. love 2 u and ur mummy. xx xx
Thank you
Sarah
for your lovely message for Cherrelle. Molly was a brave little girl, now a beautiful angel looking after you all
Godbless you and your family .Take care of each oherxx Heidi & Dellis Hewitt (gts-George Jones- Cherrelle & Ramone Cumberbatch/Hewitt
I Miss You!!
To My Darling Baby Girl Molly!
How are you doing baby girl? I miss you so much...
I hope your being a good little girl for grandma, tell her I said hello. Grandma will give you a massive hug and kiss from me. I cant believe how long its been since you had to leave to go to heaven (nearly 16 months now), I never thought that I would still be here today without you. In many ways I wish when I tried to go to heaven you would of let me because I want to be with you and I hate waking up knowing that it was all real that your not here anymore and are never coming back, but Im also glad Im still here to be with my mam (nanna), dad (Grandad) and the kids (auntie caitland, uncle Ian and uncle adam. I am getting more and more money for your headstone every month. I cant wait to have it all on for you then you have your little spot with your name and your picture and other things on, it will be so lovely Molly I promise. I will never ever ever forget you and when its time for me to have your little brother or sister I am going to tell him/her absolutely all about you his/her big sister. I have to go to work soon so I will pop back on before I go to sleep tonight. I love you darling and I always will. My love for you will never die it just grows more and more each day. Love Mummy x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x
my love for molly
to my grandaughter molly it broke heart to us part .
but the day will come when we meet again upabove in heaven.but untill then i will always be heart broken.everyone i meet will know about u for ur my grandaughter im proud to say.i love u sweetheart my molly moo.nite nite sweetheart all my love ur nanna traceyxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Happy Valentines Day
Molly darling i just wanted to say happy valentines day. I will be up to your garden to see you later when ive got dressed. I love you and miss you so much x x x x
I miss you so much!
Hi My Sweet Little Baby Daughter..Molly
I love you so much and miss you even more each day.
Me and Nanna have been getting some nice new things for you for valentines day. Wow your going to be 2 years old soon like Godmummy Claire has said.. you would be really cheeky and talk for england like your cousin Libby and Auntie Caitland.. I wish I could of seen your first steps and heard your first word but instead Grandma is seeing them and taking photographs for me to see when I get to heaven with you. Me and Nanna have been talking about you abit more again now, it gets hard talking about you it makes me want to cry but you know what your mummy is like I dont like people to see me cry. I love you more now than ever before be a good girl and have a fantastic valentines day. x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x
Hi Sweetheart its Nanna sorry I have not been able to come up as much to see you but Nanna will be up very soon to sort out your garden with all the nice things your mummy and I have bought you. Your last day with us keeps sticking in my head is that you trying to tell me your still here with me? My heart is broken but still full of love for you. Love you always and miss you forever love Nanna x x x x x x x x x x x
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